in this tug of war, you always win; even when i'm right.

back to the place where i belong.
free from everything. at least for now.
is that a good sign?
well seriously, i dont know.

someone ask me,
'what you gona do next?'
"look for job lo."
'what kind of job?'
"hm.. i.. i dont know. havent think yet. see how ler.."
'omg. bla bla bla'
i dont really remember WHAT the person said but i do remember HOW the person sait it.

sigh. i really dont know what i want.
no target no goal? hopeless can dai.
i need to wake up instead of dreaming..
life aint no fairytales. sighs.
reality is cruel. this is so true.

perhaps freedom is not a good thing sometimes.
i need to step forward.
start all over again.
this is tiring. damn.

心，累了。

我不懂，真得不懂，
总觉得什么事都给我搞砸了。
是我不够好，还是你太好？
是不是日子久了，
环境变了，人也跟着变了？
我也不想再去执著什么。
只要你高兴就好。
你好就好。

可能，在爱里面这样算笨。
可能，永远没有所谓永恒。

你听了很多，你说了很多
你都没有错；错在我，太寂寞。
谁居心叵测 ？谁存心搅和？
不必再挑拨 ，我现在只想撤。

有太多假设， 有太多揣测
幻灭这一刻；任谁都逃不过。
从缠绵悱恻 到彼此沉默。
爱情这首歌 ，你跟我 Key不合
泪已够， 别再说；
累已够， 别挽留。- 累格。

Waiting for the end to come; wishing I had strength to stand..

miss daldal, please dont forget about our date.
i need you to end this pain for me.
hopefully it ends tomorrow.

god bless me.

我飞行，但你坠落之际；很靠近，还听见呼吸。

上的星期大病一场，
38, 39, 38, 39
这几个号码一直徘徊。
那段期间自己好像真的支撑不住了，
很痛，很辛苦。

感谢你的保佑，
如今病好了。

很庆幸的，
自己还活着。
没什么比这个重要了。

谢谢在我病倒时细心照顾我和关心我的人。
我爱你们！

爸妈，对不起，
让你们担心了！

to miss THM

刚刚看到某些人为你写的部落格, 有少少不爽, 所以自己也要写一个.
其实很懒得写那么多, 因为我是以行动来证明的, 不是靠说咯. ;x
难道我不说, 你就不懂我对你的心意吗? 不可能吧!


我爱的傻婆戴敏敏，
今年不多写什么废话了,
只想祝你有个愉快的生日,
希望你不要如往年一样"扑街",
希望你的傻米妮对你好一点,
希望你快快搞定你的fyp,
希望你快快找到心中所爱,
最重要是开开心心和身体健康!

友谊永固!
爱你 :)

我接受唔到咯!~

你的爱就像彩虹；雨后的天空。你的爱就像彩虹；绚烂却教人迷惑。

胡先生送了一盒饼给我，
虽然里面只有两片，

但已经很足够了。

all the way from hk - 老婆饼

老婆饼的典故

at least, at last. :S

味道的确跟本地的老婆饼不一样。
谢谢你，胡先生。
下次吧，
下次一定会让你品尝家乡的好料！

:)

zsamina mina zangalewa; this time for SPAIN!

i know it's kinda late for this but still..

VIVA SPAIN! :D


so lengzai. :*)

and Iniesta the hero who gave Spain its first WC title.

Spain is the best! 2years after winning the European title and now they lift the World Cup trophy in South Africa. :)

VIVA ESPANA!

the dutch or espana? ESPANA!

this is the first time that Spain has been into the world cup final and according to the prediction of Paul the octopus, they going to lift the trophy for the first time for sure. :)

before this i was so in love with England and supported them because gerrard and lampard are in the team. they are cute hoh? LOL. and the referee made mistake which failed to spot the second goal of England and instead of drawing level at 2-2, England lose 4-1 in the second half to Germany. :( maybe there will be other result if the second goal was counted in. sighs. :(

okays now, let's move on to Spain. the reason i support Spain but not Netherlands because of cute guys too wtf. err no, i mean, their playing skill is more POWER than the dutch. and and.. still, Spain has more cute and handsome guys! Fernando Torres, David Villa, Iker Casillas, Cesc Fabregas, Xabi Alonso and etc etc.

the Spainish

Fernando Torres

David Villa

Cesc Fabregas

aiyaaaa sei mei, i'm so in love with Torres now. so nao you see la, all the cute guys are in Spain. how can i not support them in their battle against Netherlands?

i think everyone should support the spanish too! LOL. :)

go Spain! go ESPANA!

bullet for my valentine

dearest mr snowman,
thanks for the yummylicious birthday treats.
we shall go makan again! :D

okays la. berie yau yeng lah. :/

snow's fish fish :D

yummy! :)

milky honey dew is loved.

some whatever name mango drinks.

terima kasih for the WX1.
i will take good care of it. promise.
xoxo. lots of love. :)

and now it's obvious that we know who the real bitch is..

yes i know. this is such a wrong time to blog.
and i'll make it real fast one and continue on my last minute revision.
but who cares. blahhhhh..

tomorrow will be the last paper..
opps. it's today, at 3pm.
and im done.
done with exams.
thats it.

tired.

so. damn. tired.

wish me luck. :)

this peter is so cool! HAHAHAHA. :D

can we pretend that airplane in the night sky like a shooting star? i could really use a wish right now.

arghhhh. you know you have been busy when your mama starts calling you at random times asking why you havent been calling. i felt soooooo bad. T_T

i used to call my mom and just talk to her whenever i feel like it. but now, omgggg! this is the 882901times she asked me the exact same question. :( i miss you, mom! i miss you, pa! i miss everyone and everything at home so BADLY! :(

i cant even remember what i have been done ever since i gone insane after the submission of iemky and now it seems like im losing my way. :( now FYP ahhhhh FYP, you're taking 75.92% of my life!! big SIGHs!

seriously, i dont even know if its possible to forget how to be hardworking.

and if it is possible, i have totally forgotten how.

and NOW, YEAAAA..
all these last minute rushing assignment is killing me!!

can i use a wish right now?

midpoint soon,
die liao laaa
die 96.

i'd never sing of love, if it does not exist; but darling, you are the only exception.

shake me, break me..
just because i'm in a fucking annoyed mood. :(

today when rushing to boring cimiso class, in car:
me: wey, i think im gonna sick again la.
mrs W: what happened to you AGAIN? (like in wtf sick again tone.)
me: my ear bengkak leh. BOTH sides! :(
mrs W: see laa, always don't wanna drink water! always drinks those teh peng, kopi peng blahh blahh ( keep on mumbling nonstop..)
me: GOT laa. i got drink eh. but not so much la.
mrs W: must drink mineral/plain water!! not those teh or whatsoever. (serious tone.)
me: yalaa yalaa.. :( (felt abit guilty la.)

because i dont listen to this old lady aka miss T who always act like my mama in a good way, so i ended up like this:


sorry my mama wannabe miss T and the fei mr S,
i will guai guai drink more more PLAIN/MINERAL water!! :(
no more cursing me ok? :P
i know you love me geh! :$

get well soon, myself. :D

给陈小姐的一封信

陈小姐：

对不起，谢谢。

谢谢你一直栽培我，
让我能够分辨是非黑白。
谢谢你一直包容我，
就算我做错事，你也只是骂骂我两句，
然后就会问我想要吃什么，
然后就煮给我吃。
我还记得那时的我只是随便敷衍了你，
然后就出去了。
然而我现在才知道，那时的我是多么的幸福。

还记得小时候我真的做错得很离谱，
你没有责怪我，也没有开口大骂我，
然后只是走开了。
我还以为自己是对的。
后来忍不住问你到底是怎么想，
你只是拍拍我的头，
告诉我你对我的行为感到失望，
你告诉我说我已经长大了，
你也不想再打骂我。
你知道吗？
当时的我的心，比你打骂我时更痛。
而我也知道你的心，
肯定比我痛一千倍甚至一万倍。

谢谢你从来不嫌弃我
一直呵护着这么懦弱胆小的一个我。
从小学开始你每晚都会陪着我一起温习功课，
帮我检查我的作业，还有我最讨厌的听写，
你都会帮我一一复习了才会去睡。
还记得那时候老师要我们交一个美术作品，
以前的我是超讨厌美术科的，
因为我没有美术细胞。
我叫你帮我，你却不肯，
你说自己的事，自己做。
我很不开心，心里一直骂你，
怨你说你不好，你根本不疼我
什么都不帮我，
然后就哭了，累了，跑去睡了。
第二天醒来，看到桌上放了一个以干花完成的作品，
真的好美，心也都凉了，
因为我知道那是你是熬夜为我赶的作品，
我才知道你对我的爱，
虽然不说出口，但那分量，
肯定比天高，比海深。

陈小姐，
我觉得我长大了，可是我还是希望是你的小宝贝，
好让你一直保护我，
呵护我在手心。
你对我的好，
数都数不尽，也衡量不了
很抱歉，我想，
我今生今世都报答不了。
谢谢你为我挨过的酸苦辣咸，
但我保证从今以后，
我会让你往后过的日子都是甜的。

陈小姐，
我爱你，是love at the first sight.
从我张开眼睛那一刻开始我就爱你了。

人情世事已经看透透，有啥人比你卡重要？


陈小姐，
母亲节快乐！
你永远是我的最爱。
现在的我只想回家去。

叮当?小叮当!

最近很喜欢一直重播这首
叮当的我爱他
这首歌也是下一站 幸福的主题曲
可惜我还没看 :(
歌词写的好好哦
下次去k的时候一定要唱! :P

他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

missleejiaen.

其实很想假假扮不知道，
但最后还是很不忍心啦~ :P

李小姐aka Miss L，你厉害叻!
竟然有这个本事，
让我觉得好像很内疚。:D

所以在此祝你
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!
终于到LEGAL的岁数了！
真是可喜可贺啊！

够老了，凡事都要学者坚强点
不要一点点就哭叻！
加油哦！
你知道我们是爱你的。


李嘉恩，生日快乐！:)

don't leave me out here dacing alone.

Whenever there's no hope,
always hope for hopeless. :)

Thanks for making my day. hehehe.

please click the picture to enlarge.

somebody is getting high? HAHAHA.
too stress? or perhaps craving for that SOMETHING? :P

anyway, love you babe.
let's fight together. :)
xoxo.

all i ever wanted was you.

after the boring legal-issues-wannabe class, we decided to go for a movie which is strongly recommended by Ms C and Mr M during the brunch and craps session.
there was a briefing about fyp which i intended to attend but the rest are not going and its end up all absent. * ahem*

Ms C is going to clinic for eye problem some plastics surgery stuff.
Ms T is rushing back home for her assignment TV session.
Mr M is.. i think he might attend the IMPORTANT briefing. who knows.
Mr P and Mr S are the best! We ended up 3kakiS since everyone else act so busy. ;(

The movie:

HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON

thumb up for the movie! hiccup & astrid are cute vikings tho but toothless the young dragon is soooo adorableeeeeeeeeeeee! omg! i feel like owning one wtf. ;(

toothless is so cute. isnt it? :)

hiccup + toothless

how i wish i can own a pet like toothless. :(
okays la, enough of craps.
back to the boring ass-sign-ment!

fizikaly & mentaly kondemn ehhhh! damn.
i'm cool uhhh. stress yet can still movie-D. lol!

and i wonder if i ever cross your mind; for me it happens all the time.

i dont know why i suddenly feel like blogging.
but i got nothing special to blog about.
ahhh screw me. screw iemky. screw fyp.
i know this is not the end. YET. ;(

apart from the uncountable workload, i have no life.
no seriously, i don't have a life!
sad case. but this is so true.

soon enough, im gonna be so dead;
and yet,
i'm still blogging nonsense here. T__T

arghhhh, i'm so sick with bullshits man i swear.

currently having this famous amos cookies + fresh milk. whoa! sounds like so healthy eh? and it is 2:30AM in the morning. T__T

yes i know im so FAT already wtf.

time slows down.. whenever you around.

im gaining weight. ahhh yesh, im getting FAT FAT FAT! ;(
it's damn hard to resist delicious yummy foods loh please! and life's short, eat while you can.. right? *grins* i went for badminton. i tried to jog. but failed, still fat leh! at least i tried right?? :(

but seriously, in such trying times, i've learned to never give up although i know sometimes failure is definitely unavoidable but for me is that matters most is to get up and try again and again. i know this sounds funny. you probably wont be so stupid to try on something that you already knew that it will cause you failure. haihs.
GET UP & TRY AGAIN!
so overheard this phrase but never practiced.

chicken test?

okays lahh, im gonna layan my hk series while eating my famous amos biscuits.

FAT eh? screw lah. :-O

trouble is a friend.

seriously,
planning is such a bitch.
most of the time, its usually the reason why I always do my assignments last minute because plans will never ever go accordingly. and i dont know why. :(

the pile of assignments is killing me,
IEMKY, SIM, CIMISO and yes, the FYP is da HARDCORE killer. darn. ;(
enrolling for third year is definately a bitch!

oh yes I know, you probably think that I am just giving myself excuses but hey, dont tell me you can just ignore the fb games, gossips bout who and who are being together, which chicks are hot blah blah blahhhhhh.. aihs. being kpc is not wrong. but avoid from doing the assignments is so wrong. *wheeeeee* (this is so not true. lol.)

mama: finish it earlier then no need so fan lor.
me: right also laaa. then can go back hoh! yay!
mama: come back for what? study hard hard first!
me: haihs. you dont know la, i miss homie.
mama: it wont runaway.
me: ........

SEE THE FACE LOL

tongpakfu's series updated on PPS. :D
okays, i know.
i am so dead. T.T

因了解而分开？

如果忽远忽近的洒脱，
是你要的自由，
那我宁愿回到一个人生活。 

如果忽冷忽热的温柔，
是你的藉口，
那我宁愿对你从没认真过。 

到底这感觉谁对谁错， 
我已不想追究，
越是在乎的人越是猜不透。

you know that i love you so..

my beloved DeeDee..

i know the day will come sooner or later.
it's only the matter of time..
i thought i've already prepared for this.
i thought i was brave enough.
i never thought that it would hurt so much.

RIP, MY DEE.
j0e and me.
and the rest will always remember you.
the memories will always stay with us.

yes. the feeling is killing me, alot.
yes. i cried damn hard and i knew you wont be back.
yes. deep inside my heart, i miss you.
and yes yes yes, I LOVE YOU.

You know that i love you so,
I love you enough to let you go. (:

happy BELATED new year.

well,

HAPPY YEAR 2010 !

i've got alot of stories to tell..

but then not this time. ;(

haihs.

anyway, missleechiayan..

please be tough!

dont cry like that when you see me okays?

i really scare leh :(

you will get what you wish for girl.

just be patient.

you know we heart you. ;)