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跨别之后的回归。:)

最近很喜欢写一些让人觉得很emo的statement。

有时候是自己看了别人的故事，也把自己也幻想是故事里的人物了。

可能自己也随着年龄的增长，看事会往很多方面想，有时还会想多了。

所以，大家也别再为我担心了。

越是累了，就要更发奋图强；

越是受伤了，就要更快自我疗伤。

况且，人总要长大吧？

falling slowly.

it's funny when i realized that im getting more and more demanding about my life. but people tend to be more materialistic and realistic when they grow up, isnt it?

the more i see, the more i want.

and please dont stop me from competition. i cant never stop comparing. it is something that inside me. i will not change. i can never change.

dont ask me why, because i dont know. i will never know.

this is the cruel and ironical world. people wont feel sympathy for you. there are some people out there just waiting to see you fall, hoping one day you wont succeed; i always believe that.

people get jealous of everything. this is human nature.

how pathetic.

people like you when they feel comfortable with you;

people dont like you just because you look good. how true.

sometimes i wish i was someone else.

in this tug of war, you always win; even when i'm right.

back to the place where i belong.
free from everything. at least for now.
is that a good sign?
well seriously, i dont know.

someone ask me,
'what you gona do next?'
"look for job lo."
'what kind of job?'
"hm.. i.. i dont know. havent think yet. see how ler.."
'omg. bla bla bla'
i dont really remember WHAT the person said but i do remember HOW the person sait it.

sigh. i really dont know what i want.
no target no goal? hopeless can dai.
i need to wake up instead of dreaming..
life aint no fairytales. sighs.
reality is cruel. this is so true.

perhaps freedom is not a good thing sometimes.
i need to step forward.
start all over again.
this is tiring. damn.

Waiting for the end to come; wishing I had strength to stand..

miss daldal, please dont forget about our date.
i need you to end this pain for me.
hopefully it ends tomorrow.

god bless me.

the dutch or espana? ESPANA!

this is the first time that Spain has been into the world cup final and according to the prediction of Paul the octopus, they going to lift the trophy for the first time for sure. :)

before this i was so in love with England and supported them because gerrard and lampard are in the team. they are cute hoh? LOL. and the referee made mistake which failed to spot the second goal of England and instead of drawing level at 2-2, England lose 4-1 in the second half to Germany. :( maybe there will be other result if the second goal was counted in. sighs. :(

okays now, let's move on to Spain. the reason i support Spain but not Netherlands because of cute guys too wtf. err no, i mean, their playing skill is more POWER than the dutch. and and.. still, Spain has more cute and handsome guys! Fernando Torres, David Villa, Iker Casillas, Cesc Fabregas, Xabi Alonso and etc etc.

the Spainish

Fernando Torres

David Villa

Cesc Fabregas

aiyaaaa sei mei, i'm so in love with Torres now. so nao you see la, all the cute guys are in Spain. how can i not support them in their battle against Netherlands?

i think everyone should support the spanish too! LOL. :)

go Spain! go ESPANA!

叮当?小叮当!

最近很喜欢一直重播这首
叮当的我爱他
这首歌也是下一站 幸福的主题曲
可惜我还没看 :(
歌词写的好好哦
下次去k的时候一定要唱! :P

他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

don't leave me out here dacing alone.

Whenever there's no hope,
always hope for hopeless. :)

Thanks for making my day. hehehe.

please click the picture to enlarge.

somebody is getting high? HAHAHA.
too stress? or perhaps craving for that SOMETHING? :P

anyway, love you babe.
let's fight together. :)
xoxo.

and i wonder if i ever cross your mind; for me it happens all the time.

i dont know why i suddenly feel like blogging.
but i got nothing special to blog about.
ahhh screw me. screw iemky. screw fyp.
i know this is not the end. YET. ;(

apart from the uncountable workload, i have no life.
no seriously, i don't have a life!
sad case. but this is so true.

soon enough, im gonna be so dead;
and yet,
i'm still blogging nonsense here. T__T

arghhhh, i'm so sick with bullshits man i swear.

currently having this famous amos cookies + fresh milk. whoa! sounds like so healthy eh? and it is 2:30AM in the morning. T__T

yes i know im so FAT already wtf.

time slows down.. whenever you around.

im gaining weight. ahhh yesh, im getting FAT FAT FAT! ;(
it's damn hard to resist delicious yummy foods loh please! and life's short, eat while you can.. right? *grins* i went for badminton. i tried to jog. but failed, still fat leh! at least i tried right?? :(

but seriously, in such trying times, i've learned to never give up although i know sometimes failure is definitely unavoidable but for me is that matters most is to get up and try again and again. i know this sounds funny. you probably wont be so stupid to try on something that you already knew that it will cause you failure. haihs.
GET UP & TRY AGAIN!
so overheard this phrase but never practiced.

chicken test?

okays lahh, im gonna layan my hk series while eating my famous amos biscuits.

FAT eh? screw lah. :-O

trouble is a friend.

seriously,
planning is such a bitch.
most of the time, its usually the reason why I always do my assignments last minute because plans will never ever go accordingly. and i dont know why. :(

the pile of assignments is killing me,
IEMKY, SIM, CIMISO and yes, the FYP is da HARDCORE killer. darn. ;(
enrolling for third year is definately a bitch!

oh yes I know, you probably think that I am just giving myself excuses but hey, dont tell me you can just ignore the fb games, gossips bout who and who are being together, which chicks are hot blah blah blahhhhhh.. aihs. being kpc is not wrong. but avoid from doing the assignments is so wrong. *wheeeeee* (this is so not true. lol.)

mama: finish it earlier then no need so fan lor.
me: right also laaa. then can go back hoh! yay!
mama: come back for what? study hard hard first!
me: haihs. you dont know la, i miss homie.
mama: it wont runaway.
me: ........

SEE THE FACE LOL

tongpakfu's series updated on PPS. :D
okays, i know.
i am so dead. T.T

december blues.

saw this quote and kinda likey it. huhu.
so i decided to copy it and share it here..
perhaps im just being annoyed.
perhaps this is the real me.

"someday you'll cry for me like i cried for you,
someday you'll need me like i needed you,
someday you'll miss me like i missed you,
someday you'll love me but I WONT LOVE YOU. "


wheeeeeee. dont worry.
im not emo or moody.
huhuhu.
its kinda meaningful
and i just wanted to share. :D

tonight i've fallen i cant get up, i need your loving hands to get me up..

finally submitted the
damn-many-works-to-do UCSD
and
almost-get-me-killed MKP..
ass-SIGH-ments! haihs. :(

now struggling for the-unknown-anything-about-it subject - HCIU.
big THANKS to my lecturer :)
you know i know loh.

exam gona start next week, this week still stuck on assignments and presentations..
oh god, how i wish i can fast-forward the time so that i can skip these shits. haihs.

and thanks to all these,
i actually pending my revision..
which is 宫心计
how sad.

when flowers gaze at you, they're not the one who cry..

HELP!
currently looking for hciu's exam tips (cant believe i'd asked for it! lol.)
ok lah, i admit that im not a good student. DO NOT laugh at me as you are 50 steps laughs 100 steps only! LOL! (you know who you are.) HAHAHAHAHA!

to those who are having the tips, ok loh, you are a good, pretty/handsome, kind.. etc etc..
can you please give me the tips? hehehehe. im SINCERE okay!

thai hui min and cheryl chia, please do not vomit while reading this post!
im just trying to transform myself to be a GOOD student ok!

SUPPORT abit lahhhhhhh. :D

nampak macam sangat pro je! (someone so proud laaa)

craps end. back to potong.
haihs. mampos aku!

both hands tied behind my back with nothing.

today skipped morning class due to the sudden attack of lazy viruses from peter.g =( yea he is a bad sometimes but he is CUTE all the time. =)
and we went brunch at errr.. erm... shit, i really cant think of the shop that we makan-ed because whenever i said "siu yok" or opposite alison, it's clearly understood. ;D huhu.

and guess what, today peter gan hui hui "self-experienced" the method of 3C's. (suddenly realised that i did pay SOME little attention during gbg's class.) LOL.

dengan ini, saya mempersembahkan.. jeng jeng jeng..

Prince of FROG aka "cheng wa wong zi"!

peter claimed that he suka green, so.. ok loh. weyyy, it cost RM12 leh dont play-play! ;D but kesian aunty tu kan.. need to carry this kind of thingy and walk far far and sell one by one to the customers. =( peter.g bersimpati dengannya lalu purchased because at first he thought it was only cost RM8. ;X from here, we can membuktikan bahawa peter is seorang BUDAK yang baik hati. ;D

during pasar malam, we went kaikai and mammam. syok! and passed by a stall, saw the same frog but peter insisted that we dont ask about the price because he scare he'll sakit hati.. haihs. guess what, i TAHAN damn long time not to ask the price loh but mr.snow mau buy that one piece mah, what to do? must know the $ also mah. so i asked loh. and of cos, ASK MAI the $ of that frog la. aiyo sad, RM10.. (peter stand aside and cried. :( kesian kan?) sorry loh.

wey, OK what.. the cheng wa wong zi bloody cute ok? JUST LIKE HIM! ;D

random post ;D

i was kaikai-ing with my so-called daddy, mr LEONG, to pavilion. ;D but sad, we only went for window shoppinggg since our wallet almost "dry" dah!! ;(

pavilion, in my term, is a high-class shopping mall with all those dreamers' dream branded stuffs + costly with fine quality and looking good clothes :D~~~ and.. and.. bla. (cheryl babe, we shall go shopping someday! ;x)

mr. LEONG claimed that he never try Carl's Jr. before, so we went there to makan! ;D and guess what, he was actually surprised with the SIZE of the burger!! LOL. i ter-read a quote at the tissue box there found that it was quite funny. it says "She Tells You Size Does Not Matter. She's Lying." omg! whats that suppose to mean? LOL. ngek ngek ngek. okay lah, dont think too much ya. it actually talking about the size of the burger la. *winks!* ;x

here is the result..............

awww. mr LEONG and his burger.
can you see how hungry he was? ;x

btw, can you see the guy behind with the orange shirt? he is actually one of my classmate, islam. ter-met him there with his friends. i dont know whether i spelled his name correctly or not but hopefully he dont mind. ;D

he insisted me to bite the burger! LOL.

CRISPY CHICKEN. promotion? -.-?

but seriously, i cant finish the goddamn burger!! ;( its really biggggg!! ahh no, i think the suitable word to describe the burger is HUGE! damn bloody BESARRRRR you tau? -.-" i shall call peter to join me since he likes to eat ppl's leftover so much. (since he likes to complain that me and cheryl always wasted the foods.) hurhurhur. ;D what? geli ah? no leh, you can save alot you know? ;D *referencing: peter's quote.*

and last but not least, muacks to my sexy housemate, mr GAN xiong xiong for his lovely blue roses..



tenkiu verie muchie! *hugs!*


not all scars show. not all wounds heel. sometimes you can't see the pain that you feel.

random post.

today is a holiday (hari nuzul al-Quran, i dont know whether spell correctly or not.) for few states in malaysia. err, i mean those ISLAMIC state like here. lol. but those lazy ppl who stays at non-holiday state like someone also will give themselves an offday today due to their laziness. :X and i tot today will be free abit due to holiday, but who knows.. shop lagi many customers. good also lah, not that boring mah hoh. and can earn money too. $_$

and pity me. i only ate 2 meals today. cirit-birit leh. babi j0ez, mali jaga aku please. :(

and kesian mr wong also. he kena chicken pox. sure gatal sini sana leh. i had it when i was 19 and i know that kind of itchy mia feeling but cant scratch. :( cannot kena angin, cannot eat this and that, cannot go here and there. KESIAN!! but nvm lah, people said we only had it once in our whole life. (dont know true or not) but still, hope you get well soon lah! take good care of yourself. nanti during bday hvnt cure then kantoi. stay at home celebrate with cicak and antu only. wuwu. :X

night folks.

random post with pizza. ;)

adoi.

since i came back (2nd) til now (16th), tak pernah lagi makan any fast food. kesian me hoh? :X tu la, dad said fast food not healthy la, oily la, ini la itu la, i also lazy leh mau makan later kena membebel free free. lol.

this afternoon been sms-ed wif my dad. knowing that mr Leong is going back to somewhere he belongs. (konon nyer.) and suddenly thought of this evil idea.. makan PIZZA! and hoh, pizza not consider as fast food mah, kan after we ordered then we need to sit there and wait for it and sometimes it takes quite some time to serve us the pizza. so it is not fast food. fast means you ordered, and you get it immediately. kan kan kan? YAY~~ :D

SO, we went to mall's pizza hut and ziao-ed pizza lur.. and i bring my little cousin, fuyi along.

this is cool lime chicken flavour. sedap giler.. :D

and this is the à la carte. OK LAH, i admit i ordered this bcos of that sotong rings only. :X

and this is my FAT dad with his tongkuhead. :x mr leong posing and kc talking to ah wei that time, scare to show his entau face here.


and this is my cute little cousin, fuyi with his deliciousie spa ga theeee :D he already give order that he wanted to go to pizza hut and eat this spaghetti when we were at the car park that time. Zz.

after that, tea session with cute cute alvin and cool eric ting and fish benny. :D

happy ending. night people.