:: the awful truth ::

子不嫌母丑，狗不嫌家贫。

2011-08-19T19:58:00.005+08:00

我想我真的麻木了。

搞不懂为什么人总是那么可悲。

有的人，在沧海变成桑田时，表现得还不如一条狗。

falling slowly.

2011-08-07T02:22:00.005+08:00

it's funny when i realized that im getting more and more demanding about my life. but people tend to be more materialistic and realistic when they grow up, isnt it?

the more i see, the more i want.

and please dont stop me from competition. i cant never stop comparing. it is something that inside me. i will not change. i can never change.

dont ask me why, because i dont know. i will never know.

this is the cruel and ironical world. people wont feel sympathy for you. there are some people out there just waiting to see you fall, hoping one day you wont succeed; i always believe that.

people get jealous of everything. this is human nature.

how pathetic.

people like you when they feel comfortable with you;

people dont like you just because you look good. how true.

sometimes i wish i was someone else.

专属天使

2011-07-20T11:27:00.005+08:00

晚上的机场特别的冷清。

雨一直下，离别总是那么的伤感。

末班机飞往一个根本不属于我的地方。

冷漠，无情的现实生活，

总令人喘不过气来。

无奈。

咬紧牙根

我终于知道是什么感觉了。

希望一切安好。

要好好照顾身体。

我爱你们。

100分？

2011-05-20T09:03:00.004+08:00

人不是完美的。
这是一个根本改变不了的事实。

但是又为了什么不断要求身边的人变成自己理想中的完美呢？
不是强人所难吗？

有时候，
我们都会很习惯地说：你变了。

其实很多时候我们都没发现，
其实也是因为自己开始变了。
才说是别人变了。

因为，我们看别人的观点，
都已经和从前不一样了，

所以才会发觉到变化的所在。

我知道我变了，

已经开始变得无理取闹了

已经开始让人家反感了

已经开始要抓狂了

我完了。

in this tug of war, you always win; even when i'm right.

2010-12-13T21:18:00.005+08:00

back to the place where i belong.
free from everything. at least for now.
is that a good sign?
well seriously, i dont know.

someone ask me,
'what you gona do next?'
"look for job lo."
'what kind of job?'
"hm.. i.. i dont know. havent think yet. see how ler.."
'omg. bla bla bla'
i dont really remember WHAT the person said but i do remember HOW the person sait it.

sigh. i really dont know what i want.
no target no goal? hopeless can dai.
i need to wake up instead of dreaming..
life aint no fairytales. sighs.
reality is cruel. this is so true.

perhaps freedom is not a good thing sometimes.
i need to step forward.
start all over again.
this is tiring. damn.

心，累了。

2010-11-24T17:20:00.006+08:00

我不懂，真得不懂，
总觉得什么事都给我搞砸了。
是我不够好，还是你太好？
是不是日子久了，
环境变了，人也跟着变了？
我也不想再去执著什么。
只要你高兴就好。
你好就好。

可能，在爱里面这样算笨。
可能，永远没有所谓永恒。

你听了很多，你说了很多
你都没有错；错在我，太寂寞。
谁居心叵测？谁存心搅和？
不必再挑拨，我现在只想撤。

有太多假设，有太多揣测
幻灭这一刻；任谁都逃不过。
从缠绵悱恻到彼此沉默。
爱情这首歌，你跟我 Key不合
泪已够，别再说；
累已够，别挽留。- 累格。

Waiting for the end to come; wishing I had strength to stand..

2010-11-22T00:06:00.003+08:00

miss daldal, please dont forget about our date.
i need you to end this pain for me.
hopefully it ends tomorrow.

god bless me.

我飞行，但你坠落之际；很靠近，还听见呼吸。

2010-08-26T14:18:00.005+08:00

上的星期大病一场，
38, 39, 38, 39
这几个号码一直徘徊。
那段期间自己好像真的支撑不住了，
很痛，很辛苦。

感谢你的保佑，
如今病好了。

很庆幸的，
自己还活着。
没什么比这个重要了。

谢谢在我病倒时细心照顾我和关心我的人。
我爱你们！

爸妈，对不起，
让你们担心了！

to miss THM

2010-08-04T00:59:00.003+08:00

刚刚看到某些人为你写的部落格, 有少少不爽, 所以自己也要写一个.
其实很懒得写那么多, 因为我是以行动来证明的, 不是靠说咯. ;x
难道我不说, 你就不懂我对你的心意吗? 不可能吧!

我爱的傻婆戴敏敏，
今年不多写什么废话了,
只想祝你有个愉快的生日,
希望你不要如往年一样"扑街",
希望你的傻米妮对你好一点,
希望你快快搞定你的fyp,
希望你快快找到心中所爱,
最重要是开开心心和身体健康!

友谊永固!
爱你 :)

我接受唔到咯!~

你的爱就像彩虹；雨后的天空。你的爱就像彩虹；绚烂却教人迷惑。

2010-07-22T02:15:00.005+08:00

胡先生送了一盒饼给我，
虽然里面只有两片，

但已经很足够了。

all the way from hk - 老婆饼

老婆饼的典故

at least, at last. :S

味道的确跟本地的老婆饼不一样。
谢谢你，胡先生。
下次吧，
下次一定会让你品尝家乡的好料！

:)

zsamina mina zangalewa; this time for SPAIN!

2010-07-16T00:16:00.006+08:00

i know it's kinda late for this but still..

VIVA SPAIN! :D

so lengzai. :*)

and Iniesta the hero who gave Spain its first WC title.

Spain is the best! 2years after winning the European title and now they lift the World Cup trophy in South Africa. :)

VIVA ESPANA!

the dutch or espana? ESPANA!

2010-07-11T12:50:00.007+08:00

this is the first time that Spain has been into the world cup final and according to the prediction of Paul the octopus, they going to lift the trophy for the first time for sure. :)

before this i was so in love with England and supported them because gerrard and lampard are in the team. they are cute hoh? LOL. and the referee made mistake which failed to spot the second goal of England and instead of drawing level at 2-2, England lose 4-1 in the second half to Germany. :( maybe there will be other result if the second goal was counted in. sighs. :(

okays now, let's move on to Spain. the reason i support Spain but not Netherlands because of cute guys too wtf. err no, i mean, their playing skill is more POWER than the dutch. and and.. still, Spain has more cute and handsome guys! Fernando Torres, David Villa, Iker Casillas, Cesc Fabregas, Xabi Alonso and etc etc.

the Spainish

Fernando Torres

David Villa

Cesc Fabregas

aiyaaaa sei mei, i'm so in love with Torres now. so nao you see la, all the cute guys are in Spain. how can i not support them in their battle against Netherlands?

i think everyone should support the spanish too! LOL. :)

go Spain! go ESPANA!

bullet for my valentine

2010-07-10T23:17:00.007+08:00

dearest mr snowman,
thanks for the yummylicious birthday treats.
we shall go makan again! :D

okays la. berie yau yeng lah. :/

snow's fish fish :D

yummy! :)

milky honey dew is loved.

some whatever name mango drinks.

terima kasih for the WX1.
i will take good care of it. promise.
xoxo. lots of love. :)

and now it's obvious that we know who the real bitch is..

2010-06-18T03:35:00.006+08:00

yes i know. this is such a wrong time to blog.
and i'll make it real fast one and continue on my last minute revision.
but who cares. blahhhhh..

tomorrow will be the last paper..
opps. it's today, at 3pm.
and im done.
done with exams.
thats it.

tired.

so. damn. tired.

wish me luck. :)

this peter is so cool! HAHAHAHA. :D

can we pretend that airplane in the night sky like a shooting star? i could really use a wish right now.

2010-05-19T00:07:00.006+08:00

arghhhh. you know you have been busy when your mama starts calling you at random times asking why you havent been calling. i felt soooooo bad. T_T

i used to call my mom and just talk to her whenever i feel like it. but now, omgggg! this is the 882901times she asked me the exact same question. :( i miss you, mom! i miss you, pa! i miss everyone and everything at home so BADLY! :(

i cant even remember what i have been done ever since i gone insane after the submission of iemky and now it seems like im losing my way. :( now FYP ahhhhh FYP, you're taking 75.92% of my life!! big SIGHs!

seriously, i dont even know if its possible to forget how to be hardworking.

and if it is possible, i have totally forgotten how.

and NOW, YEAAAA..
all these last minute rushing assignment is killing me!!

can i use a wish right now?

midpoint soon,
die liao laaa
die 96.

i'd never sing of love, if it does not exist; but darling, you are the only exception.

2010-05-14T00:03:00.003+08:00

shake me, break me..
just because i'm in a fucking annoyed mood. :(

today when rushing to boring cimiso class, in car:
me: wey, i think im gonna sick again la.
mrs W: what happened to you AGAIN? (like in wtf sick again tone.)
me: my ear bengkak leh. BOTH sides! :(
mrs W: see laa, always don't wanna drink water! always drinks those teh peng, kopi peng blahh blahh ( keep on mumbling nonstop..)
me: GOT laa. i got drink eh. but not so much la.
mrs W: must drink mineral/plain water!! not those teh or whatsoever. (serious tone.)
me: yalaa yalaa.. :( (felt abit guilty la.)

because i dont listen to this old lady aka miss T who always act like my mama in a good way, so i ended up like this:

sorry my mama wannabe miss T and the fei mr S,
i will guai guai drink more more PLAIN/MINERAL water!! :(
no more cursing me ok? :P
i know you love me geh! :$

get well soon, myself. :D

给陈小姐的一封信

2010-05-09T01:39:00.008+08:00

陈小姐：

对不起，谢谢。

谢谢你一直栽培我，
让我能够分辨是非黑白。
谢谢你一直包容我，
就算我做错事，你也只是骂骂我两句，
然后就会问我想要吃什么，
然后就煮给我吃。
我还记得那时的我只是随便敷衍了你，
然后就出去了。
然而我现在才知道，那时的我是多么的幸福。

还记得小时候我真的做错得很离谱，
你没有责怪我，也没有开口大骂我，
然后只是走开了。
我还以为自己是对的。
后来忍不住问你到底是怎么想，
你只是拍拍我的头，
告诉我你对我的行为感到失望，
你告诉我说我已经长大了，
你也不想再打骂我。
你知道吗？
当时的我的心，比你打骂我时更痛。
而我也知道你的心，
肯定比我痛一千倍甚至一万倍。

谢谢你从来不嫌弃我
一直呵护着这么懦弱胆小的一个我。
从小学开始你每晚都会陪着我一起温习功课，
帮我检查我的作业，还有我最讨厌的听写，
你都会帮我一一复习了才会去睡。
还记得那时候老师要我们交一个美术作品，
以前的我是超讨厌美术科的，
因为我没有美术细胞。
我叫你帮我，你却不肯，
你说自己的事，自己做。
我很不开心，心里一直骂你，
怨你说你不好，你根本不疼我
什么都不帮我，
然后就哭了，累了，跑去睡了。
第二天醒来，看到桌上放了一个以干花完成的作品，
真的好美，心也都凉了，
因为我知道那是你是熬夜为我赶的作品，
我才知道你对我的爱，
虽然不说出口，但那分量，
肯定比天高，比海深。

陈小姐，
我觉得我长大了，可是我还是希望是你的小宝贝，
好让你一直保护我，
呵护我在手心。
你对我的好，
数都数不尽，也衡量不了
很抱歉，我想，
我今生今世都报答不了。
谢谢你为我挨过的酸苦辣咸，
但我保证从今以后，
我会让你往后过的日子都是甜的。

陈小姐，
我爱你，是love at the first sight.
从我张开眼睛那一刻开始我就爱你了。

人情世事已经看透透，有啥人比你卡重要？

陈小姐，
母亲节快乐！
你永远是我的最爱。
现在的我只想回家去。

叮当?小叮当!

2010-05-03T18:50:00.005+08:00

最近很喜欢一直重播这首
叮当的我爱他
这首歌也是下一站幸福的主题曲
可惜我还没看 :(
歌词写的好好哦
下次去k的时候一定要唱! :P

他的轻狂留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

missleejiaen.

2010-04-27T18:49:00.003+08:00

其实很想假假扮不知道，
但最后还是很不忍心啦~ :P

李小姐aka Miss L，你厉害叻!
竟然有这个本事，
让我觉得好像很内疚。:D

所以在此祝你
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!
终于到LEGAL的岁数了！
真是可喜可贺啊！

够老了，凡事都要学者坚强点
不要一点点就哭叻！
加油哦！
你知道我们是爱你的。

李嘉恩，生日快乐！:)

don't leave me out here dacing alone.

2010-04-23T18:37:00.005+08:00

Whenever there's no hope,
always hope for hopeless. :)

Thanks for making my day. hehehe.

please click the picture to enlarge.

somebody is getting high? HAHAHA.
too stress? or perhaps craving for that SOMETHING? :P

anyway, love you babe.
let's fight together. :)
xoxo.

all i ever wanted was you.

2010-04-08T23:49:00.011+08:00

after the boring legal-issues-wannabe class, we decided to go for a movie which is strongly recommended by Ms C and Mr M during the brunch and craps session.
there was a briefing about fyp which i intended to attend but the rest are not going and its end up all absent. * ahem*

Ms C is going to clinic for eye problem some plastics surgery stuff.
Ms T is rushing back home for her assignment TV session.
Mr M is.. i think he might attend the IMPORTANT briefing. who knows.
Mr P and Mr S are the best! We ended up 3kakiS since everyone else act so busy. ;(

The movie:

HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON

thumb up for the movie! hiccup & astrid are cute vikings tho but toothless the young dragon is soooo adorableeeeeeeeeeeee! omg! i feel like owning one wtf. ;(

toothless is so cute. isnt it? :)

hiccup + toothless

how i wish i can own a pet like toothless. :(
okays la, enough of craps.
back to the boring ass-sign-ment!

fizikaly & mentaly kondemn ehhhh! damn.
i'm cool uhhh. stress yet can still movie-D. lol!

and i wonder if i ever cross your mind; for me it happens all the time.

2010-04-08T02:11:00.004+08:00

i dont know why i suddenly feel like blogging.
but i got nothing special to blog about.
ahhh screw me. screw iemky. screw fyp.
i know this is not the end. YET. ;(

apart from the uncountable workload, i have no life.
no seriously, i don't have a life!
sad case. but this is so true.

soon enough, im gonna be so dead;
and yet,
i'm still blogging nonsense here. T__T

arghhhh, i'm so sick with bullshits man i swear.

currently having this famous amos cookies + fresh milk. whoa! sounds like so healthy eh? and it is 2:30AM in the morning. T__T

yes i know im so FAT already wtf.

time slows down.. whenever you around.

2010-03-30T01:15:00.008+08:00

im gaining weight. ahhh yesh, im getting FAT FAT FAT! ;(
it's damn hard to resist delicious yummy foods loh please! and life's short, eat while you can.. right? *grins* i went for badminton. i tried to jog. but failed, still fat leh! at least i tried right?? :(

but seriously, in such trying times, i've learned to never give up although i know sometimes failure is definitely unavoidable but for me is that matters most is to get up and try again and again. i know this sounds funny. you probably wont be so stupid to try on something that you already knew that it will cause you failure. haihs.
GET UP & TRY AGAIN!
so overheard this phrase but never practiced.

chicken test?

okays lahh, im gonna layan my hk series while eating my famous amos biscuits.

FAT eh? screw lah. :-O

trouble is a friend.

2010-03-18T23:28:00.010+08:00

seriously,
planning is such a bitch.
most of the time, its usually the reason why I always do my assignments last minute because plans will never ever go accordingly. and i dont know why. :(

the pile of assignments is killing me,
IEMKY, SIM, CIMISO and yes, the FYP is da HARDCORE killer. darn. ;(
enrolling for third year is definately a bitch!

oh yes I know, you probably think that I am just giving myself excuses but hey, dont tell me you can just ignore the fb games, gossips bout who and who are being together, which chicks are hot blah blah blahhhhhh.. aihs. being kpc is not wrong. but avoid from doing the assignments is so wrong. *wheeeeee* (this is so not true. lol.)

mama: finish it earlier then no need so fan lor.
me: right also laaa. then can go back hoh! yay!
mama: come back for what? study hard hard first!
me: haihs. you dont know la, i miss homie.
mama: it wont runaway.
me: ........

SEE THE FACE LOL

tongpakfu's series updated on PPS. :D
okays, i know.
i am so dead. T.T

因了解而分开？

2010-03-03T18:34:00.002+08:00

如果忽远忽近的洒脱，
是你要的自由，
那我宁愿回到一个人生活。 

如果忽冷忽热的温柔，
是你的藉口，
那我宁愿对你从没认真过。 

到底这感觉谁对谁错， 
我已不想追究，
越是在乎的人越是猜不透。

you know that i love you so..

2010-02-12T18:11:00.003+08:00

my beloved DeeDee..

i know the day will come sooner or later.
it's only the matter of time..
i thought i've already prepared for this.
i thought i was brave enough.
i never thought that it would hurt so much.

RIP, MY DEE.
j0e and me.
and the rest will always remember you.
the memories will always stay with us.

yes. the feeling is killing me, alot.
yes. i cried damn hard and i knew you wont be back.
yes. deep inside my heart, i miss you.
and yes yes yes, I LOVE YOU.

You know that i love you so,
I love you enough to let you go. (:

happy BELATED new year.

2010-01-09T19:37:00.002+08:00

well,

HAPPY YEAR 2010 !

i've got alot of stories to tell..

but then not this time. ;(

haihs.

anyway, missleechiayan..

please be tough!

dont cry like that when you see me okays?

i really scare leh :(

you will get what you wish for girl.

just be patient.

you know we heart you. ;)

i want your love, i want your revenge, you and me could write a bad romance.

2009-12-22T21:46:00.004+08:00

okay. things settled down.

december of 2009 gonna ends soon.

1. i'm finally back at home.

2. foods and accommodations are FOC.

3. help dad at shop.

4. loitering around.

5. back at home.

6. no internet.

7. stay at home.

8. at home.

9. home.

10. YES, still at home.

okay la, i am officially a 宅女. LOL.

i dont know what it call in english but who cares? :D

life without internet = NO LIFE.

but still, i wonder why am i still breathing. =.=

december blues.

2009-12-01T04:20:00.004+08:00

saw this quote and kinda likey it. huhu.
so i decided to copy it and share it here..
perhaps im just being annoyed.
perhaps this is the real me.

"someday you'll cry for me like i cried for you,
someday you'll need me like i needed you,
someday you'll miss me like i missed you,
someday you'll love me but I WONT LOVE YOU. "

wheeeeeee. dont worry.
im not emo or moody.
huhuhu.
its kinda meaningful
and i just wanted to share. :D

you dont know me, you dont even care..

2009-11-29T03:35:00.008+08:00

zOMFGWTFBBQ$#%$&*@#$%#%&..

the 2nd chapter of twilight saga, NEW MOON, ugh. big disappointment. dont ask me why. just go and watch it and you'll know. :|

the christmas carol, ugh ugh. another disappointment. 3D some more. sighs. ding dong bell. maybe i dont really understand the meaning of it. :(

its 3:35AM. YESH! IT IS FREAKO EARLY in the MORNING or i shud say late at midnight. arghs. whatever. it is not the main point tho!

its 3:38 AM now and im still eating this irresistible-sinful-oreo rollllls! argh!! it's jus simply delicious and im getting fat and pui and gemuk and fei day by day! WTH! :(

but still, i do really enjoyed eating it. huhuhu. *screw me!*

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOO.. deliiiiiiiciiiiiiiiiious. slurppppp~
attracted by the pic? ngek ngek~ ok dont lie to yourself.
i know you are hungry too..
so lets just get FAT together okays? :D

loves.

so maybe it's true, that i cant live without you.. maybe two is better than one.

2009-11-16T17:35:00.011+08:00

e-x-a-m weeeeeeek. :(
ahhh whenever i mention about exam, it really spoiled ppl's mood. sighs.
today just finish one paper. two more to go.
but now feel like dying dah. haihs.
now the subjects are like knowing me more than i know them. LOL. :D

w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r. dont careeeeee d.
i do which i know. those qs which i dont know, forget it bah. :(
wuwuwu.

ALL THE BEST TO WHOEVER WHO BOTHER TO READ MY BLOGS.
and
GOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHO ARE HAVING FUKTARD EXAMS LIKE ME NOW.

here i included a cute video of "HOW TO CHEAT in EXAMS". LOL.

and not forgetting,
HAPPY sweet 21st BIRTHDAY TO CHRIS aka CYF!
MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS ditunaikan! yay~ :D

all the best juan.
best of luck to me, myself and I.
sighs.
god bless.

killer post.

2009-11-11T04:07:00.003+08:00

ENOUGH SAID.
someone crapped with me and killed the silent night together.

tonight i've fallen i cant get up, i need your loving hands to get me up..

2009-11-11T00:37:00.005+08:00

finally submitted the
damn-many-works-to-do UCSD
and
almost-get-me-killed MKP..
ass-SIGH-ments! haihs. :(

now struggling for the-unknown-anything-about-it subject - HCIU.
big THANKS to my lecturer :)
you know i know loh.

exam gona start next week, this week still stuck on assignments and presentations..
oh god, how i wish i can fast-forward the time so that i can skip these shits. haihs.

and thanks to all these,
i actually pending my revision..
which is 宫心计
how sad.

you wont be lonely, even if the sky is falling down, you'll be my only..

2009-11-08T01:46:00.004+08:00

哭包二号，
以后别再这样吓我了，
你哭到我的心都凉了。
我会心脏病爆发的。

哭包一号，
你竟然会安慰哭包二号！
而且安慰人的功能竟然那么“掂”！
够厉！哈哈！

back to assignment ah juannnnn.
死到临头了还不怕。:(

when flowers gaze at you, they're not the one who cry..

2009-11-05T17:31:00.005+08:00

HELP!
currently looking for hciu's exam tips (cant believe i'd asked for it! lol.)
ok lah, i admit that im not a good student. DO NOT laugh at me as you are 50 steps laughs 100 steps only! LOL! (you know who you are.) HAHAHAHAHA!

to those who are having the tips, ok loh, you are a good, pretty/handsome, kind.. etc etc..
can you please give me the tips? hehehehe. im SINCERE okay!

thai hui min and cheryl chia, please do not vomit while reading this post!
im just trying to transform myself to be a GOOD student ok!

SUPPORT abit lahhhhhhh. :D

nampak macam sangat pro je! (someone so proud laaa)

craps end. back to potong.
haihs. mampos aku!

snowho.

2009-10-29T22:02:00.007+08:00

This special blog entry is dedicated to the beloved ones.

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snowho aka my boss. :D

ok i also wonder why he looks so thin in this pic. :X

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
hope you
stay lengzai always,
stay healthy always,
stay KAYA always ! :X

hugs and kisses. :)
and prezzie will be on the way.

every moment last forever, when you feel you've lost your way

2009-10-26T01:33:00.009+08:00

although those as-sign-ments gonna go for the hardcore killing spree soon..
i mean REAL SOON..
but now i currently still in the enjoying honeymoon status which will lead me to sudden death anytime.. i know. :( i need someone/something to motivate me but.. *BIG SIGH*. i know just have to help myself.
ok actually we went to temple today to busy kaypoh with others for the 九王爷诞~ :D

2 sexy back amois busy with shopping.

after that, we headed to town when the romantic rain falls.

someone got a nice haircut.

and we went to makan at BBQ plaza. someone supposed to treat us but guess that her ATM machine just too tired with work and never show up. SO, we end up with AA. SAD la. ;P

let the pictures do the talking..

the new haircut & the cry princess. *LOL*

the shou & the fei.

it's d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-s.
damn full and full and full and full. ok you can see that how FULL(s) i was during that time.

favourite picture of the day:

started with a perfect kiss, then we could feel the poison set in..

2009-10-18T19:00:00.004+08:00

omg! really cant resist someone's chiooooo look!
too bad i dont have the pic of the chioooo ones!

aww yeah! you know im talking about you babe!
so..

what are you waiting for? give me your chio pic please! ;D~
i bet others wanna take a look too!

and YOU'RE WELCOME!! (respond to your pm in msn <3.)
xoxo, love always.

to the bmitwu.

2009-10-12T19:30:00.005+08:00

i always wanted to tell you how much i love you and you've always been a great mom and how much you mean to me.
i always think about you in times both good and bad and your advises and love are always with me in happy times and sad.

i grew up with a love that made me confident and sure in my life and because of this love, i always felt secure. i will always follow your guidance along the path of my life which helped me learn my life lessons and be the person that i always wanted to be.

mama, thank you very much for the strengths and your sacrifices you've given me all these years. i know the word thankyou could/would not show how much you cared and loved me with all your heart but this is the least thing i can ever do.

Happy Sweet Birthday, Madam Tan!

and you've been awarded THE BEST MOM IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE by me! ;D congratulation! LOL.

hope you like it.

i love you. now and forever.

meet me halfway, right at the borderline..

2009-10-12T10:38:00.006+08:00

i was intended to buy a new mattress but all of them are $$ ;( sighs. end up we went cari makan more than craving for the mattress. ;x

mine pari + sotong :O

mr. or's lalas and ikan duno apa nama.

we wanted to order the bendi but tersalah order this. lol.

the boss.

and guess what.. all of the makanan above only cost rm20 with rice. T.T cheap meh~ rawrrrrrr~~ eyy, in mv leh.. we havto pay for the aircond and ambience lehhhhh~ consider cheap jor lah! ;P

omg! im suppose to diet but.. haihs.
i just cant resist FOODS wtffff..

MISSION FAILED! :(

but the ikanbakar and kacang are so damn delicious.
i shall try again next time. *evil laugh*

bird-day for cbgan. ;D

2009-10-02T21:25:00.008+08:00

wheeeee..
i know mr. ganteckyong would 100% comfirm/guarantee + warranty wont browse or neither read my blog BUT STILL..
i wanna wish this old man who turns 25 today a very HAPPY BIRD-DAY ! (old man terus la.. but still S&A. haihs.)

this is the yengest pic i found of ganteckyong. (:

and we bought something sibeh cute for cbgan leh.. ;D

which is.....................

a cute box

which contains................

a cute spongebob!

OMG! it is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i want it! but its your birthday!! so.. MEH~~~

please remember to claim this gift from SANYO.

happy birthday to you, tyGan! ;)
hope you'll find your partner/gf/lover/wife asap! (i know your mom cant wait to drink teh dah.)

yeaphuithin.

2009-09-30T02:57:00.007+08:00

ok lah, this entry is special dedicated to the name above since today is her 20 BIG day. KB-ians, in case you dont know her, you may/shud go to the SUN on thursday/friday/everynight whenever she's in the town, you may get to see her bayang there. LOL.

and this is the gambar in case you cannot recognize her as she turned MORE cantik kebelakangan ini ( i didnt mean you are ugly before! dont get me wrong!)

wiuwitttt.. this is the latest yeapthinthin aka da birthday girl. (:

in case you really cannot recognize her, this is the her before;

dont worry lah babe, pretty as usual okeh? ;D

i just want you to know that how much i appreciate you as my..
fren/buddy/jimui/biatch
and whatsoever that bring us close together.
and i do really enjoy whenever we're bitchings together.. lol.
friendship long lasting 99!!

HAPPY SWEET BIRTHDAY BITCH!
wish you..
leng4ever,
sweet4ever,
everything nice oso forever lahhhh. ^^

xoxo, hugs.
you know i love you.

im pacing, impatient..

2009-09-06T12:41:00.004+08:00

wooohoooooo~
guess what? im GOING HOME!!
HOORAYYYYYYYYYYY~

i got this kind of homesick since ever im at this strangers' place, which not belongs to me.. which i struggled damn fucking much just to stay.
i know my role here and im trying bloody hard to play my part well.. life aint easy shit. haihs. but now feel like kinda releasing those shity feeling..

2115 hour.
SERIOUSLY CANT WAIT!

i'm coming home, i'm coming home..
did you take off when i'm gone?
i missed it all,
i messed you up,
i missed you.
i'm coming home.. i wanna know
when all the leaves begin to fall?
if i'm falling apart,
falling apart for you.
- Hey Monday, Homecoming.

both hands tied behind my back with nothing.

2009-09-02T00:31:00.004+08:00

today skipped morning class due to the sudden attack of lazy viruses from peter.g =( yea he is a bad sometimes but he is CUTE all the time. =)
and we went brunch at errr.. erm... shit, i really cant think of the shop that we makan-ed because whenever i said "siu yok" or opposite alison, it's clearly understood. ;D huhu.

and guess what, today peter gan hui hui "self-experienced" the method of 3C's. (suddenly realised that i did pay SOME little attention during gbg's class.) LOL.

dengan ini, saya mempersembahkan.. jeng jeng jeng..

Prince of FROG aka "cheng wa wong zi"!

peter claimed that he suka green, so.. ok loh. weyyy, it cost RM12 leh dont play-play! ;D but kesian aunty tu kan.. need to carry this kind of thingy and walk far far and sell one by one to the customers. =( peter.g bersimpati dengannya lalu purchased because at first he thought it was only cost RM8. ;X from here, we can membuktikan bahawa peter is seorang BUDAK yang baik hati. ;D

during pasar malam, we went kaikai and mammam. syok! and passed by a stall, saw the same frog but peter insisted that we dont ask about the price because he scare he'll sakit hati.. haihs. guess what, i TAHAN damn long time not to ask the price loh but mr.snow mau buy that one piece mah, what to do? must know the $ also mah. so i asked loh. and of cos, ASK MAI the $ of that frog la. aiyo sad, RM10.. (peter stand aside and cried. :( kesian kan?) sorry loh.

wey, OK what.. the cheng wa wong zi bloody cute ok? JUST LIKE HIM! ;D

dedicated for mr.sc XIANG..

2009-09-01T21:07:00.010+08:00

first of all, i would like to wish my berie dearest cousin brother,
mr. sc. XIANG - who finally turns 20 this year! yay~
welcome to the-start-from-TWO-ZERO family! ;D OLD d loh!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

i still remember we used to be very close since we were kiddo and you like to call me hong se jiejie just because i always wear the red colour dress. LOL.

i still remember the first time you follow me back to my house and when papa asked you what you wanna eat, you said "McDonald!" and we were all swt.. that time at the kampung place where i stay where got McD lehhh.. you bloody town kiddo! and you end up CRYING! ;o

i still remember there was a day we went to machang and you did something really geli and.. ewwww! (keep it to yourself!)

i still remember the time we used to eat nasi goreng and nasi sayur behind my shop during puasa and gossips!

i still remember we used to bcome NINJAs when you were staying with me! (shhhhhhh..!)

i still rememberthe day i being a very bad cousin sister and brought you to the club for the first time. (forgive me!)

i still remember the night we drink, drank and drunk together and confess stuffs!

i still remember you hugged me and cried on my shoulder and told me your problems.

i still remember how we goes through and be tough during the hardest time together.

i still remember alot of things..
but i guess im sux in expressing my feeling..
and i always show my bad temper to you,
but you never blame me and always be by my side.

and you always help me to bully the other cousins when we were young..
and you always help me to defeat the other cousins, rampas the red bicycle from them.. and ah ma they all always blamed me for teaching you bad things! cis.
and you always help me cover line whenever im in troubles.
and you always help me in my fucking assignments.
and you always help me to do this and that.
and you always help me in anything and everything.

from..

ok i lied, this is not you but jun and you look alike!

OK AGAIN!
FROM..

to..

both of us at ts.

both of us in sp.

i know you are trying to make me happy and wanted to show me that how much you appreciate me as your cousin sister and guess what, i hope the same goes to you too.
i know you're trying hard to prove to me that you're getting mature and can able to handle everything well by yourself and need not my help. i know you're trying hard to be a better person as you felt that you're not that good before.. but for me, you are good enough.
life goes ups and downs.. many things that are unpredictable. do appreciate what you have now. you know i will always got your back when you needed me. study hard and get good good mia result okay? i chia you makan ho liao! promise! =)

again, HAPPY SOUR-AND-SWEET BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
dreams come true ya!
i love you, boy. xoxo.

give me reason to prove me wrong..

2009-08-14T16:50:00.005+08:00

walaooo~ my eye still bengkakkkk. wth. i think worst than ever. ;(
i got one small single eyelid eyes on my left and i got NO eyelid on the right plus bengkak like nobody business now. fuiyohhhh.. alien indeeeeeed! >.<

i received a gift from cheryl babe after she had her short but adventurous journey (thanks to H1N1.) to Bangkokkkkk.. woooohooo. its Bangkok baby! ;D but no worries lah, you got strong antibodi + devil body and sexy face, virus also scare of you loh. ;D

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

cute sial this piggie cup.
thanks babe!

love it lots. thanks. xoxo.
you made my day.

and the coolness runs through my soul..

2009-08-12T10:54:00.004+08:00

my eye IS getting worst. i guess. ;(
wanted to attend classes this morning but when i see myself in the mirror,
i thought i've transformed myself into the car light of the merz which is big small eyes. -.-
i think i look fucking dumb. ccb.

now let the picture do the talking.

"tua seh bak" which means big small eye in hokkien.
wtf. scary!
YEAH i know!

knnccbpkm!

i fought until the limit to stand on the edge.

2009-08-11T19:00:00.004+08:00

是的。
人不是万能的。
一旦病了，就特别想家。

现在的我；
只想回到属于我的地方；

是的。

现在的我；
只想回家去。

to ms HUI MIN.

2009-08-09T19:14:00.020+08:00

本来是想亲自写一封信给你，把我想要告诉你的事全部写在那封信，不让别人知道。但后来看到李小姐那么有心思特别为你写一个post, 所以我也不能“拾输”，为我的你写一个生日贺词(不懂有没有人会吃醋然后打我.) ;) 虽然迟了很多，但我知道你不忍心着怪我吧！我也好过有些人咯，不忘记你的生日日期！

算算我俩的友谊，有两年多吧？虽然不是很久，但不懂为什么，感觉好像认识了好久，好像老朋老友那样，无所不谈。(应酬一下，当然还有李小姐也一样啦. 可是现在没有办法啦，人家好像有异性没人性，敏，看来你跟我要相依为命了！) ;x

这两年来，我们一起作战的日子并非一帆风顺，算算下也好像一起经过了无数的“灾难”。从vb到现在的dwds，都好像死里逃生。虽然那些科目对某些人来讲是一些易如反掌的事，但对我们来说可是一件蛮困难的事。-.- 还说是IT的学生。唉！可悲！每次的压力都不一样，都让我喘不过气来。每次有困难都好像是世界末日那样，好像就快捱不过了，真的很想放弃！
每次一到这种地步，你都会在我身边自持我，告诉我很快就要捱完了。
当然，你也告诉我很多废话。啊，不是！其实是金玉良言！;x

“喂不要这样啦！以前我们那么差都能捱过，现在也一样可以！” (原来我们很差?哈哈!)
“喂我们要快点赶完assignment!不然等到last minute就来不及了!” (到最后也不是两个傻子在due date七点之前在lab赶assignment.)
“我以前要应酬一个可爱的阿yan已经很累了！现在又到你！真的不能顶。”(哈哈! 看来你是逃不过我们了!应酬我真的有那么累吗?)
“哇你驾车很狼咯~” (两年了，还不习惯吗？哈！)
“唷!你不要那么粗鲁啦！还有你的脚！不要放到那么高。” (我很难顶吧？)
“要玩咩？你每次都欺负人。ok la. 用华语啦！TEN! TWENTY!” (这个很够厉！我看只有你明白吧。)
“你的头发乱咩？你的头发没有整齐过咯~” (*无语*)
“你的头发都是酱啦~ 不乱就不像你。”(赞美还是讽刺?哈哈!)
“唷你的房间。。-.- 不用收啦! 我习惯了! 乱才像你叻。” (我要告你侮辱我!)
“哇你穿到好像要去pasar malam酱！我看你从pasar pagi去到pasar malam咯~ (就只有你穿到最formal了! 不要给我看到你穿t-shirt去学校！不然我叫警察抓你！)
“今天我看还是买比较好。因为我画出线了。好像很明显。” (this is when we gona cheat. lol.)

某恩忽然觉得你很重要，但我一向来都觉得你很重要。没有你，就没有人应酬那么无聊的我了，也没有人会听我的冷笑话然后假假的笑最后被我逗到真真的笑了；还有被我欺负的时候，你也是会用无奈的眼神看着我然后笑着带过~ 哈哈！够无聊吧？有没有想过要揍我？(想清楚了才答!哈!)

说实在的，真得很感谢你加入我的世界，让我的世界添加另一道彩虹。也谢谢你当我遇到挫折时在我身边替我加油打气。;) 还有想告诉你，不管出了什么状况，我也会在撑你到底。哈！好了啦，肉麻的话就不多写了，我懂你能感受到咯！

我也upload了一些之前的照片，不要骂我！哈哈哈哈~

2007年你的生日。还记得吗？我和李小姐一起去找你然后给你的惊喜。

第一次一起去leisure mall。

第一次同组的marketing presentation后。

第一次一起去pavilion.

第一次用李小姐的laptop's webcam拍的。

第一次用你的手机拍的照片。

还有很多叻~ 都upload不完~omg! 但我就是找不到任何我们在2008年所拍的照片~ *哭* 好像都没有。。唉！

现在的我们；

在我们enroll之前。

在DWDS的class.

在calorie的我们。

还有跟我一起skip class的你一起去Leo's.

哈哈~ 好像upload了不少照片。不要骂我！纯粹是为了你的生日entry而已。ok? ;D
anyway, happie BELATED sweet 21 BIRTHDAY! (old enuff to go into the casino liao!)
希望你心想事成，永远都健康快乐！
最重要的是友谊永固！(你说我老套我也要写一样的东西咯!)

hugs&kisses.

I think I am a boring person.

2009-07-24T23:25:00.005+08:00

OH HELLO everybody! opps, i mean nobody actually. ;D
i am backkkkkkkkk but anyway, who cares? phewww~
too many things sudah berlaku recently and i IS darn lazyyy to blog about it. :( i wish i WOULD be more hardworking if i COULD. ;x

today went bowling then after that movieeeeeeee at times square.
we watched LAND of the LOST
"when the past, present and future met together.." thats the concept of da movie where you can see the T.Rex met scientist and the alien wtf. =.=" swt.
it was a stupid yet funny movie which makes PETER GAN laughed non-stop in the cinema like no one business yet he still complained that it was a low-cost movie!

after that dinner at U-Village, Sg. Wang. woohoooo~ and guess what, we randomly paid a niceeee price..

can you see that? its RM44.44 wtf. LOL.

and by the way, the guy so yau yeng in the pic above is YAN YONG HUI aka Peter Gan.
ladies out thereeee.. this guy is still S&A. he's cuteeeeeeeeeeee.. isnt it? awwwww!! he surely is.

so what are you waiting for? come and get himmmmmmmm... wheeeeeeeee~ i bet he will be darn HAPPY when he see this. ;D and i can ensure you that this yan yong hui is very ROMANTIC and he is a greeeeeeeeeeeeen lover. ;D

sai lou, you see how good jiejie treat you!! must belanja me makan lohhhhh!

one step at a time.

2009-06-08T09:35:00.004+08:00

tata to almost-get-killed-by-exams MAY;
owhhh HELLOOOOOOOO JUNE! :D

but.. im leaving to GENTING da entertainment city soon! YAY~
see ya babe & dudes! *grins*

photos will be upload when i come backkkkkkkkkkkkk~

lotsa LOVE.

all good things come to an end.

2009-05-28T12:34:00.003+08:00

MU down.
DWDS down.
my mood down.
im damn fucking pissed off!

would somebody be kind to take a gun and shoot on my head?

i'd rather die.. if i dont have you.

we keep on fighting til the end.

2009-05-17T02:03:00.004+08:00

glorious MANCHESTER UNITED!
enuff said.. ;D

Here goes our famous 'Glory Glory MU' song:

Glory, glory, Man United,
Glory, glory, Man United,
Glory, glory, Man United,
And the reds go marching on, on, on.

Just like the Busby Babes in Days gone by
We'll keep the Red Flags flying high
You've got to see yourself from far and wide
You've got to hear the masses sing with pride
United! Man United!
We're the boys in Red and we're on our way to Wem-ber-ly
Wem-ber-ly! Wem-ber-ly!
We're the famous Man United and we're going to Wem-ber-ly
Wem-ber-ly! Wem-ber-ly!
We're the famous Man United and we're going to Wem-ber-ly

In Seventy-Seven it was Docherty
Atkinson will make it Eighty-Three
And everyone will know just who we are
They'll be singing 'Que Sera Sera'
United! Man United!
We're the boys in Red and we're on our way to Wem-ber-ly
Wem-ber-ly! Wem-ber-ly!
We're the famous Man United and we're going to Wem-ber-ly
Wem-ber-ly! Wem-ber-ly!
We're the famous Man United and we're going to Wem-ber-ly

Glory Glory Man United
Glory Glory Man United
Glory Glory Man United
As the Reds Go Marching On! On! On! (3x)

we are the CHAMPION !

心要让你听见，爱要让你看见。

2009-05-13T11:47:00.006+08:00

妈，
对不起，我不哭，
不是因为我不伤心或是冷血，
因为我知道她终于放得下了，终于摆脱了所有生活上的酸甜苦辣。
因为我知道她不必再受苦了，终于可以走向她觉得是幸福的轨道。
因为我知道她终算是等到了，终于可以向久等的阿公投怀送抱了。

我虽然很心疼，
但我不是神，所以什么也做不到。
我唯有祝福她，
因为我觉得她是幸福的。

妈，
对不起，
我知道我很不乖，时常顶撞你。
也时常耍坏脾气，
搞到你七孔冒烟，但还任由我。
你处处都呵护我，
深怕我受到伤害，怕我给人骗。

妈，
真得很对不起，
我知道你一定笑我傻，
因为我是你女儿，所以你觉得对我好是应该的。
你虽然没说出口，但我是知道的。
有时真的很难过，总觉得自己没用，
这么大了也不能为你做些什么东西。
也不能回报你对我的恩。

我只想告诉你，
自己是那么的荣幸有你这么伟大的妈妈。
真的很爱很爱你。
虽然没有当面告诉过你，
也时常没挂在嘴边，
这些话都处于我的内心。
我觉得上天真的对我很好
因为它赐给我那么好的妈妈。

迟来的祝福；
祝你

母亲节快乐！

i hate this part right here.

2009-05-07T22:36:00.003+08:00

i know im selfish.
if you could understand.
but only you could stay,
and if it's only a lie
that you would tell
which i know..
just to make me happy;
deep inside my heart
im truely happy.

yell at me,
for my mistakes;
blame on me,
for my childish
snide about me,
for my stubborness.

whatever it is..
do i ever look like i care?

i am screaming, i love you so.

on my own.

but my thoughts you cant decode.

i think i know

there is something i see in you

it might kill me

i want it to be true.

- decode, paramore.

but if you wanna cry, cry on my shoulder..

2009-05-01T22:57:00.004+08:00

lalala~ im back in town! ;D

welcome to the

brand new month.
brand new week.
brand new day.

but i still

out of CA$H. (i'd be pleased if someone would donate to me!)
cannot control my lame stylo. (who cares anyway?)
havent started any shit of my dwds. (this time die keras keras! but still lazy.)

argh!! screwed kau-kau! yeah, screw you-you! ;X

im deeply in love with my voodoo doll which is ridiculous-looking-but-meaningful doll. his name is saan ha but i dont know the actual meaning of the name. saan ha is a gift from mr. leong long long time ago and recently i found him inside my wardrobe. saan ha is hurt. he must be very lonely since i left him inside my wardrobe. ;( i will sayang you start from now okay? bring you to go everywhere i go!

can you see his name?

can you see the needles on his heart? ;(
he is deeply hurt. just like me!

aiyoh, almost forgot tim..
happy blardy-but-nothing-to-do-with-me LABOUR day to those who are working!! good loh you guys.. 3 days break berturut-turut. hope you guys enjoy lah! ;D

only heart deserves HEART!

不懂得道歉，我没那么聪明。

2009-04-26T23:37:00.003+08:00

妈的！
我知道我很差。
做什么都不好
讲什么都不对
心情真的烂到极点。
脾气坏到不可收拾。

没有人能够了解，
也没有人能开解；
就只有人会埋怨。

很想告诉大家
就算你们把我糟蹋到什么地步
或者都希望我得到什么烂下场
很对不起
也很可惜
我并不在乎。

不在乎别人
对我的
眼光
批评
不满

因为
我比你们更讨厌我自己！

j0elakesl. iheartyou.

2009-04-13T23:50:00.002+08:00

first of all..
i would like to say happie beauty birthday to my beloved
loved loved loved loved loved..
j0ez lake aka the cutieeee pie! *heart*

you are such a sweet person.. when i first met you.
we dont have to talk alot but you can just easily understand me..
you are there when i needed you the most.
thanks for being such a great friend.
i truly sincerely cherish our friendship since few years back..
and i will continue doing it..
you will always be my evil-laughing cutie pie!

anyway,
just wanted to wish you a very happie 2x birthday!
(okie laa, hide ur actual age for you! you see how good i am!) ;x
hope your dreams come true..
and stay pretty always ya!
and..
friendship-4eva.

xoxo. love you. ;)

i'm my own worst enemy.

2009-04-01T21:31:00.005+08:00

things are going against me lately. and i dont understand why.

and just because i swear more than you do, does that show that im a bad and you're not?
i know lahhhh biatch, everyone knows that you're the most polite homosapiens in the world lahh who always wearing different shity mask everyday. opps! sorry. im being rude again.

you dare to swear to god that you never swear or not? fuktard. just because i swear 'fuck' and you replace the word to 'ji dan gao' aka chicken egg cake doesnt mean that you dont swear. the word 'ji dan gao' is only the the cover line for you and you wanna tell that you are more polite than me just because i swear 'cibai' or 'diu'? mofo. it is only the same term for me as ji dan gao as i sweared in different words doesnt mean im rude.

you know, it is so damn fucking annoying when people are complaining about your rudeness like 'hou sam la, you are a girl, dont swear those words lah!' 'dont be so rude laaa!' 'yiyerrr, tao yan, dont swear so much lah no good one!' yeah right. swear ma ass off.

what? swearing is not good? why is it not good? you tell me. is it bad for health? or you will be dying when someone is swearing? or you will gone blind when i show you my middle finger? yiu. fucking retarded. just because you dont show middle finger and this will makes you a better person ahhh? dont be so self-preservation laaa. dont fucking judge me that way. diu.

and guess what? im just gona say..
OH YEAH! SCREW ALL OF YOU.
eh please lah, you know you are swearing. like anyone else too.
i do say please. do i sound like more polite?

DAMN! FUCKING PISSED ME OFF!

and not forgetting..
HAPPY FARKING APRIL FOOL dumbass! :D

would you please.. put me out of my fucking misery?

dalam dilema, di antara jalan derita.

2009-03-27T23:57:00.004+08:00

hari ini saya akan blog dengan bahasa malaysia. semoga saya dapat tulis dengan selancar-lancarnya. ;X

akhirnya, peperiksaan makmal BFP yang merupakan mimpi ngeri bagi saya sudah berakhir. tapi sedih, saya tidak mempunyai masa yang mencukupi untuk membuat kesemua soalan yang diberi. haihs. banyak jawapan yang ditinggalkan kosong.. matilah kali ini. ;(

aduhai. kini saya berasa sangat takut kalau-kalau dapat markah yang tidak memuaskan. mesti kena tembak kuat-kuat. wuwu. harap-harap saya dapat melepasi dugaan ini!

gambar hari ini:

inilah rupa yang tensyen sebelum peperiksaan.

rupa-rupanya begitu susah mahu blog dalam bahasa malaysia. kalau selalu macam ini, mesti kena penyakit tekanan darah tinggi.

harap maaflah kalau blog saya ini ada banyak kesalahan tapi ini adalah untuk kegunaan sendiri sahaja. sekian sajalah entri ini. terima kasih atas kesabaran anda untuk membaca. HAHAHA.

the best place to cry is in the rain.. where no one will know.

one step closer to the edge.

2009-03-26T22:20:00.005+08:00

will be having the BFP lab test tomorrow!! i think everyone are nervous.. maybe not for the pro. maybe they are just relaxing while watching movie and listening to music. but not me. im having a hard time doing calculations. and dreadful formulas made me sick. WHY PPL WANTED TO CREATE THIS SUCH OF COMPLICATED SUBJECT?!

sorry for my stupidity. i just couldnt help myself. just a lil bit out of track. but i promise i will be fine.

BFP is killing indeed. im dyingggggg!! argh! i wonder why i still have time for this post.. LOL. i shud get my ass settled and continue my practice. practice makes perfect, right?? -.-

and..
PRAY HARD. i mean, REAL HARD. hopefully there will be a rainbow for me after the rain. :]

good luck everyone!

perhaps this would help?

When will this miserable life end?

AIYO screw lah! i lewat again. as usual..

2009-03-21T23:11:00.007+08:00

for the birthday wishes..

SORRY loh!! im not supposed to be late to wish someone happy bday.. I KNOW LAH! but then, life are just too fussy and busy.. and guess what, i dont even know what i busy for!? wth. OK lah, screw it.

anyway, i want to wish Ms. PEI KOON aka my cousin a happy belated birthday!! hope you happy happy lah! ;D

Ms. HIN with her lovely smile.

and here is.......

YEAH, its the ULTIMATE BUCKER WEAPON for you!!

it will soon enough deliver to you babe! hope you will like it! ;D

i heart you. always.

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.

bearbrickness.

2009-03-18T20:05:00.011+08:00

this morning hardly get off from bed because it was so comfortable to stay under my warm blanket and plus the weather are like indirectly tell me not to go for class.. raining heavily and thunderrrrrrr. aww! laziness conquered 80% of my mind. another 20% dont know gone where. but sad.. since im a good student, what to do, MUST attend class loh! ;X

went lunchieeee with my funny-to-death classmates at miu kai because we really outta ideas where to go for lunch since we kept eating the same foods. every week. can you imagine that? swt -.- the food hunting session was awesome. and we were there chit-chatting for about 2hours+. gosh! we were just simply too many topics to talk about.. from the sky to the land and to sea. LOL. and me, cheryl and peter were ordered there same drinks which we called ying yong in cantonese and it is actually only coffee + tea.

here's the result..

cheryl lovely babe with her ying yong.

Miyake Hale and her ying yong. ;x

and the best poser goes to...

peter gan aka the CUTE sai lou with his ying yong.

hurhurhur. aww! peter is soooooooooooooooooooooo cute with the one-line eyes smile. do you guys agree with me? ;D lets voteeeeeeeeeeee.

randon picture of the day :

You said you didn't need me in your life. I guess you were right.

deedeelicious.

2009-03-16T11:10:00.003+08:00

for the love of my life..

DeeDee, mummy miss you! ;(

just lack of luck, nothing else.

2009-03-15T01:38:00.004+08:00

what a gloomy saturday for the RED DEVILS fans. like me. :( but it's okay..

today is just not a lucky day, thats all. but in the end, the glory will still belongs to MANCHESTER UNITED! RED DEVILS ROCKS! :D i'll be waiting for the day to come..

kinda moody, dont feel like crapping much. im just a lil emo. very LITTLE only. better off to bed than torturing myself for keep seeing the highlight of the stupid match. :( *sad*

and.. the picture of the day:

credit to peter aka cute sai lou for taking this kinda yau yeng pic of patrick. *hugs*

i like to eat it eat it.

2009-03-12T23:31:00.009+08:00

uhhhhh. tiring day.

went back from my 2nd house wannabe. attended the boring + dreadful classes is killing me every single day. ;(

BFP is dying. i had miserable time doing calculations indeed.
MAP is dying. i think my brain is condemn. hardly memorized all those lame theories and LONGGGGGG statements.
NWS is dying. the subject understands me more than i can recognize them.
DWDS caused me to deathhhhhhhh! just blardy kill me for godsake! anyone??
and.. and.. the assignments are out. and guess what, i just dont have the mood to start doing it. yet. hopefully i can finish it on time. ;| *pray hard!*

it was practically raining cats and dogs when i on my way home and my housemate was asking me out for dinner. frankly speaking, i've got no urge and that kinda mood to go out. but since he said he belanja, so.. WHY NOT? ;D *refer to peter's quote.*

so, we went to BLACK CANYON restaurant which located at jusco, maluri. ;D

this is my cute housemate, wee siang siang & his spaghetttti.

and me. excuse my panda eyes and ugly look. *sad* and my tomyam & square rice? yum yum.

our drink. iced blended green tea with milk + teh ice.

and guess what, it only cost us less than RM50. very daiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii loh. ;D

tears are just unspoken words a broken heart can't bare to speak.

random post ;D

2009-03-11T17:21:00.014+08:00

i was kaikai-ing with my so-called daddy, mr LEONG, to pavilion. ;D but sad, we only went for window shoppinggg since our wallet almost "dry" dah!! ;(

pavilion, in my term, is a high-class shopping mall with all those dreamers' dream branded stuffs + costly with fine quality and looking good clothes :D~~~ and.. and.. bla. (cheryl babe, we shall go shopping someday! ;x)

mr. LEONG claimed that he never try Carl's Jr. before, so we went there to makan! ;D and guess what, he was actually surprised with the SIZE of the burger!! LOL. i ter-read a quote at the tissue box there found that it was quite funny. it says "She Tells You Size Does Not Matter. She's Lying." omg! whats that suppose to mean? LOL. ngek ngek ngek. okay lah, dont think too much ya. it actually talking about the size of the burger la. *winks!* ;x

here is the result..............

awww. mr LEONG and his burger.
can you see how hungry he was? ;x

btw, can you see the guy behind with the orange shirt? he is actually one of my classmate, islam. ter-met him there with his friends. i dont know whether i spelled his name correctly or not but hopefully he dont mind. ;D

he insisted me to bite the burger! LOL.

CRISPY CHICKEN. promotion? -.-?

but seriously, i cant finish the goddamn burger!! ;( its really biggggg!! ahh no, i think the suitable word to describe the burger is HUGE! damn bloody BESARRRRR you tau? -.-" i shall call peter to join me since he likes to eat ppl's leftover so much. (since he likes to complain that me and cheryl always wasted the foods.) hurhurhur. ;D what? geli ah? no leh, you can save alot you know? ;D *referencing: peter's quote.*

and last but not least, muacks to my sexy housemate, mr GAN xiong xiong for his lovely blue roses..

tenkiu verie muchie! *hugs!*

not all scars show. not all wounds heel. sometimes you can't see the pain that you feel.

tears dry on their own.

2009-02-26T03:17:00.004+08:00

tell me..
if this a sin or crime,
how come i i feel nothing?
no pain. no hurt.

perhaps,
i am just heartless.

i know
you can see through my eyes.
i know
you can see it in my eyes.
i know
you can feel what i feeling within.
i know
you can feel that my hearts gone.
i know
someday i can find it back again.
i know
someday you'll bring it back to me.

i hate daylight
i can see the real me clearly in the mirror.

i hate night time
i can feel the lights hate me and betray me.

to those who cares for me,
i am sorry,
but,

I JUST HATE MYSELF SO MUCH!

to those who hates me,
i am glad,
because
at least,

I OWN A PLACE IN YOUR HEART!

FEELING

2009-02-04T19:13:00.006+08:00

sadness and sorrow. yes. this is what i feel now. do you ever have a feeling like you are the only one who standing in one cold, dark space and you dont even dare to breathe that loud and hard? and you cant even find a way to escape. nothing just seems to be right. who you thought you can count on, no longer there for you. who you used to trust and trust you, has gone. what you thought it is so real, now fake. everything seems to be fading away. someone uses to tell me that nothing last forever. now i guess i finally know the meaning of it.

i've got so damn many thoughts and emotions in my mind and i really dont understand why am i keep on struggling to think about it since it will only turns me moody and depress. it is just a feeling which i dont know how to explain. i really wished i could express everything inside me in here and i would be happier than now. like cut some files from the pendrive and just paste it to the computer and save it so the spaces of the pendrive would be empty and clean. i wish i could format my memories or either i can choose which memories of mine that i want to keep and those sucked memories i wanted to delete so bad into recycle bin.

people always thought that i am some kind of happy-go-lucky person. yeah indeed, i am. they just dont know deeply inside my heart, i would feel cold and empty too. no one there for me to reach. helpless. yea sometimes, i admit, i am not that so-called positive minded person tho. sometimes, life is not easy as you think. real life aint no fairytales. i should have realized it. suffering, indeed. but still, you have to force yourself to be happy and smile for every fucking-shity day.

but its okay. i used to wear mask in life. yet, i think i handle it pretty well. ;)

could anyone tell me please,
what will you do if every of your happy moments, there will be 10 moments of sadness?

难受

2009-02-01T12:44:00.001+08:00

是我想太多，
你总这样说。
但你却没有，
真的心疼我。
是我想太多，
我也这样说，
这是唯一能安慰我的理由。

对不起，
其实我不想打扰你。
可是，
我的心真的很难受。

以为自己真的可以一直当着没事，
可是，
越是不在乎，
越是难忘。

请原谅我的自私。
我只是
想让自己好好休息
好好想想
自己到底想怎么样。

唉！

haru haru, mudyeojyeogane.

2009-01-16T11:02:00.000+08:00

i feel lost recently. and never thought there are also angels who stay beside me because im such a devil who only live for myself. love only myself.

to those who always stay beside me and supported me, you will never know how much you mean to me. you are the light for me when i was fallen. you are the reason why i can still standing here and be myself. thanks for everything. i really appreciate it.

to those who hates me and always wanted to see me fall, please screw yourself. continue to hate me as you're making me to grow stronger. to those who has not accept me for who i am, all i can do is stay silent. nobody is perfect and so do i.

dont look back and leave.
just live on.
because i have no regrets from loving you.
so only take the happy memories.
i can hold back in some ways.
i can bear it somehow.
you have to be happier than i am now.
day by day, im fading away.

- haru haru
Big Bang

无能为力。

2008-12-05T17:33:00.000+08:00

前几天生了一场大病，到现在才稍微好了一些些。。
发高烧、感冒、咳嗽。。全部都找上门来。
自己身体的温度高到连自己都怕了。
咳嗽到醒来了就无法再继续睡下去。
鼻子里面塞了全都是青黄色的液体。
超恶心。
超辛苦。

不过，更辛苦的是，
自己在病的时候，竟然没有人在身边体贴的照顾，
自己好像被遗弃一样。
辛苦。
堕落。
无助。

突然很想家。
生病时，他们比我更紧张。
硬拉我去看医生。因为自己超讨厌吃药。
睡觉时，她会帮我盖被单。
因为自己时常在半夜把被单给踢走了。
吃饭时，总会夹我喜欢吃的菜给我。
因为他们知道我很挑食。

在这里，没有人投靠。
唯有靠自己了。
很多事要烦，
我的心真的好累了。

请您饶了我，
放我一条生路，
好吗？

下雨天。。

2008-11-30T15:58:00.000+08:00

下雨天了怎么办？我好想你。
不敢打给你我找不到原因。
什么失眠的声音，
变得好熟悉。
沉默的场景，做你的代替，
陪我听雨滴。。

期待让人越来越沉迷。
谁和我一样？
等不到他的谁。
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味。
一个人撑伞，一个人擦泪，
一个人好累。

怎样的雨？怎样的夜？
怎样的我能让你更想念？
雨要多大？天要多黑？
才能够有你的体贴。

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些。
别说你会难过，
别说你想改变，
被爱的人不用道歉。

这些字，彻彻底底的写出我现在的心情。
也许大家都没发现，
我现在的心情真的超差超烂，
也许是因为我的演技超好吧。。

无奈。
但，
我好想你。

爱。情

2008-11-28T02:35:00.000+08:00

长大后，
总觉得爱情像个陷阱。
刚开始的时候，
一切都是完美的，
所有的时光，都是快乐的。
时间过了，
爱情也跟着褪色了。。
曾经的山盟海誓，最后也不过随风飘去。

当爱已成为往事，
当情已不在，
以前曾经经历过的一切都成为回忆。

可是，当你
试着不再去想他，
试着不再让他搞扎自己的生活，
试着自己一个人去欣赏美丽的风景时，
才发现，
原来，
自己也能一个人生活，
也可以活得精彩。

希望你能找到自己的目标，
别再为别人而活。

祝福你。

random post.

2008-09-18T14:34:00.000+08:00

today is a holiday (hari nuzul al-Quran, i dont know whether spell correctly or not.) for few states in malaysia. err, i mean those ISLAMIC state like here. lol. but those lazy ppl who stays at non-holiday state like someone also will give themselves an offday today due to their laziness. :X and i tot today will be free abit due to holiday, but who knows.. shop lagi many customers. good also lah, not that boring mah hoh. and can earn money too. $_$

and pity me. i only ate 2 meals today. cirit-birit leh. babi j0ez, mali jaga aku please. :(

and kesian mr wong also. he kena chicken pox. sure gatal sini sana leh. i had it when i was 19 and i know that kind of itchy mia feeling but cant scratch. :( cannot kena angin, cannot eat this and that, cannot go here and there. KESIAN!! but nvm lah, people said we only had it once in our whole life. (dont know true or not) but still, hope you get well soon lah! take good care of yourself. nanti during bday hvnt cure then kantoi. stay at home celebrate with cicak and antu only. wuwu. :X

night folks.

random post with pizza. ;)

2008-09-17T14:58:00.000+08:00

adoi.

since i came back (2nd) til now (16th), tak pernah lagi makan any fast food. kesian me hoh? :X tu la, dad said fast food not healthy la, oily la, ini la itu la, i also lazy leh mau makan later kena membebel free free. lol.

this afternoon been sms-ed wif my dad. knowing that mr Leong is going back to somewhere he belongs. (konon nyer.) and suddenly thought of this evil idea.. makan PIZZA! and hoh, pizza not consider as fast food mah, kan after we ordered then we need to sit there and wait for it and sometimes it takes quite some time to serve us the pizza. so it is not fast food. fast means you ordered, and you get it immediately. kan kan kan? YAY~~ :D

SO, we went to mall's pizza hut and ziao-ed pizza lur.. and i bring my little cousin, fuyi along.

this is cool lime chicken flavour. sedap giler.. :D

and this is the à la carte. OK LAH, i admit i ordered this bcos of that sotong rings only. :X

and this is my FAT dad with his tongkuhead. :x mr leong posing and kc talking to ah wei that time, scare to show his entau face here.

and this is my cute little cousin, fuyi with his deliciousie spa ga theeee :D he already give order that he wanted to go to pizza hut and eat this spaghetti when we were at the car park that time. Zz.

after that, tea session with cute cute alvin and cool eric ting and fish benny. :D

happy ending. night people.

unspoken words..

2008-09-16T14:36:00.001+08:00

help. me. im. so. tired. and. i. cant. breathe.

everyday need to wake up at 8am. everyday need to go to the same shop to have breakfast. everyday need to be at shop. everyday everyday everyday.. the same.

sunday monday tuesday wednesday thursday saturday, even friday also the same. no off day. no relax. no rest. nothing.

now i know how tired and tough for them. now i know it is not easy to be them. now i know it is not easy to live. now i know it is no easy to earn something. now i know. finally know.

i hope it is not too late for me.

it's hard for me to tell them. it's hard to tell face to face. i hope to be brave enough to tell them that i love them, indeed. i heart them.

tears keep falling from eyes. i cant control. really heartache.. just want to tell them how much i care for them and sorry if i've made any mistakes.

tired. i better off to bed. night. *emo*

festivalicious..

2008-09-15T14:48:00.000+08:00

argh, tolong! i'm so sleepieeeee..

this morning around 7am++ been waken up by a morning call from my cousin who just stay beside my house.. and she told me that my grandpa need to go to the hospital for medical check-ups. (grandpa is stayin with my family) and the funny thing is, she never call my numbers but she call dad's numbers and both of my peh and buh still sleeping til syok cos its waktu subuh and its cold outside and damn bloody warm to sleep under the blanket. SO, i need to walk into my parents' room and answered the call and open the door so that my grandpa can go with them. Zz.

around 9am+ and i started my journey to go to the hospital to "change shift" cos my aunty claimed that she needs to go back home to prepare the stuffs for "pai pai" and she hvnt do any single thing yet. Zz. i thought thing would be that easy.. i REALLY THOUGHT lah! mana tau, parking dah hard to find, need to pusing here and there for dont know how many rounds then end up park at beside white line there. AND itu clkknspkm mia guard come and halau me.. i was like, "wtf, so many cars park sini lu tarak halau tapi halau aku je!" and in my heart i cursed him 9696 altho i know it is their responsibility to do so lah. ( im not that bad la hoh? :P) then i need to park and sibeh far mia place and walk toward clinic there. clk.

and hoh, i thought (again) so simple lah go find grandpa and bring him and his things balik but the nurse there tell me that we need to wait for the blood report AWHILE only and this AWHILE takes about 2hours for us to wait there. Zz. waa piang er, i dah fall asleep there for few times dah but still not our turn yet. finally the board there shows our numbers and we've been asked to go into one of the room there. apa yang menyakitkan hati aku is that we go in the room and see the doctor tak sampai 10minutes terus diminta pergi ke farmasi to get his medicine dah. the doctor said grandpa's blood cantikkkkk, blood pressure cantikkkkk.. ala.. semua pon cantikk la, only my mood nia tak cantikkkk! clk. really crazieeee lah but there are still alot of ppl waiting for their turn tho and i think because this is general hospital and no need to pay any single $$ to get the specialist to look after the diseases and sickness. siapa tak mahu? -.- (for those who stayin in darul naim may know which hospital i'm referring to :X)

just follow papa and mama went back to my grandma's house (which is my dad's side) for reunion dinner. seriously i dont really feel like going back due to some reasons which i lazy to mention again and again. sighs. but still, the dinner was great and let me show you my all time favourite..

inilah "zhu tou tong" yang palinggggg sedapppppppppp sekaliiiiiiiiiiii ~~~ :D yum yum. orh, please dont be jealous ya. :X

anyway, i'm here to wish everyone HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL !! and enjoy your mo0ncakes ah!! :D and here is the new choices of mooncakes for year 2008 which i think it is quite cute and funny. take a look..

it is so cute isnt it? LOL. damn gerammmm leh feel like eating it.. :D

OK Lah, thats all. i go kaypoh with their tanglungs awhile la.

night everyone. *hugs*

lets start with nonsense.. :D

2008-09-14T14:04:00.000+08:00

wOohOo~~ today is a new day for me (aiyah, just pretend it is la altho its not!) cos today kinda special for me mah. fyi, this is my new blog and i already deleted the previous one cos it was kinda messy and nothing special in the previous blogs also. (hohoho! :X)

new blog, new lifestyle, everything new. so please welcome a brand new me. (*laugh evilly!*)

and and.. not forgetting, my cute plus funny plus adorable plus handsome (he insists this! LOL.) but a LITTLE bit FAT punya daddy.. HAPPY 23rd birthday!! OK, let me show you my so-called daddy yah.. deng deng deng deng..

inilah daddy ku yang ku mention tadi.. LOL. act cute lah tuh. :X hopefully i wont get killed for mem-siasuey-kan dia. kakakaka. anyway, happy birthday (again) and hope your dreams come trueeee.. terutamanya can "one more floor" with that who who who lah kay? :D *winks!

just had dinner at behind pantai timur there.. chicken chop eh. yum yum.. :O its been a long time gua didnt go there and it still taste so niceeeeeeeeeeee.. woohooo. and here come the pictures..

This is jian and cha bor mia foodsss.. deliciousieeee :D and.. deng deng deng deng...

this is cha bor with her yum yum food~~~ :D and she really enjoyed it. YAY~~

OK lah, that's all for this post la. tired. ciaoz. *yawns*